The tragic final days of one of the world’s fattest men were spent desperately hoping to lose the weight that kept him bedridden for five years.

Ricky Naputi, who weighed nearly 900 pounds, died in November 2012, but before he passed, the 39-year-old opened up his home to reality TV cameras from TLC. The cable network aired his story Wednesday night in a special called “900 Pound Man: Race Against Time.”

Naputi, who lived in the U.S. island territory Guam, was bedridden and confined to his home, unable to walk or to bathe himself.

“The last time I got out and enjoyed myself must have been years. I miss feeling the sun on my face. Miss showering, feeling water run down my body,” he said at one point.

But Naputi had also vowed to turn his life around. He was working on losing enough weight to be able to fly to the continental U.S. for weight loss surgery.

“I’m willing to try my best,” he said. “My one goal and my one goal only is to get my life back.”

The show also revealed Naputi’s loving relationship with his wife, Cheryl, his primary caretaker.

Cheryl acted as Ricky’s nurse, cooking for him, giving him sponge baths and helping him go to the bathroom, which she likened to “taking care of an overgrown baby.”

World’s fattest man, Ricky Naputi, ate himself to death at almost 900 pounds   – NY Daily News